Almost There...........

When I think of life in the bigger picture I like to sit back and take a deep breath and stop and think.....I have been created and put on this earth to worship God and that whatever I pursue should be honoring to him in every way.........Since I got back form my vacation in Hawaii in January my realtionship with the Lord has become very strengthened and my eyes have been open to the unknown.....knowing that he knows because he has my whole life in his hands......I'm not sure where my path is going to lead me but I know He is there guiding me and directing me in a quiet whisper......I pray that he protects me from my flesh and the enemy.......since I decided to pursue WYAM (youth with a mission) I have been plagued by nightmares of being attacked....totured...chased down...it has been really scary and draining but God my Almighty....has been there to give me comfort.........
I have a little over a week left in Oregon and I have done everything but pack up my belongings and put them in storage.......The hardest thing I did was visit my church family in Lincoln City my heart is tearing I had a comfort knowing that if life gets weary in Portland I could flee to Lincoln City for a couple of days and see all my old friends that feel like family......Honestly its going to be growing for me that I wont have Lincoln City to flee to.....I can't even call anyone beacuse I am turning off my phone so I can afford my trip.....I just have facebook and email......crazy I know.....but its totally God driven and I am content with that........